TEEN QUESTION/PROBLEM:
Ever since my parents got divorced i had to fill the role as "dad", and the load that comes with that has literally drained me over the years. In the past I have done things that i am not proud of, and i have hurt those closest to me. Every morning I wake up and I feel like whats the point of getting out of bed. I don't feel loved, even though I'm sure my mom loves me. I'm dealing with things right now that i cant talk with her about because i don't know what she will do or say. The thoughts of suicide started out small. I used to just think "what would happen if i killed myself this way" but now it has evolved to the point to where i am considering it. i hate it, i cant focus in school at all because all I think about is what I am going through and it sucks. And when ever something bad happens to me or any feeling of grief i trigger these emotions that spiral out of control.

TEEN LINE WROTE:
Hello, thanks for contacting us at TEEN LINE. It sounds like you're living with some burdens that are really difficult to deal with. It seems like you had to grow up fast and mature earlier than most people your age. I commend you on your ability to do it all. Although you are struggling with this right now, it sounds like you are a really strong person. Have you ever talked to someone about how you're feeling? Things like divorce and loss of a family figure can change someone's outlook on life. Talking to someone like a school counselor, older relative, mother, or another person, can really help you control your feelings. But if it ever feels like too much to handle, I want to give you the number to the Suicide Prevention Hotline. This hotline is available 24 hours a day and the number is (877)727-4747. Also, if you ever need to talk, you can always call us at TEEN LINE and there will be another teen just like you and me ready to talk to you. The number is (310)855-4673 and we're open from 6-10 PM PST.

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