TEEN QUESTION/PROBLEM:
I'm 15 years old. I stress from school, family, a being alone while trying to grow up and be a normal teen. I have white strands of hair, scars from recent self-abusing, and dark circles under my eyes from not sleeping. I'm at a new high school, and don't have any friends. I had my sister, but she's dropping out to be with her boyfriend. My oldest sister is going to be married soon, but is never home. My youngest sister is the biggest pain. She has so many "best friends" and never gets off the phone. My parents are never home. I've never had a boyfriend or been in a relationship, but I did feel deeply about my sister's fiancee's best friend. He's 20. He first told me he loved me, and I told him back, because it was how I felt. But, after that, I never saw him again. Turns out my own sister hooked him up with her best friend. I don't understand. Why couldn't he say something, or why did he lie to me? Or did he? I have had absolutely no one to talk to about this, and when I get the slightest chance to bring it up around my sisters for some advice, all I hear is "GET OVER IT!" and they walk away. I'm also very mature for my age. I don't have a myspace, and I don't take pictures of myself, or flirt with guys. I try hard, and my new years resolution was to not be so lazy. I'm trying, I really am, but I just feel like an outcast! Here's the worst part; I have asthma, and Hypo-severe allergies, which means that I can be allergic to anything, including my temper. When Someone annoys me to a specific limit, which isn't difficult, I scream. My body begins to shiver, I get immediate break outs on my face, and pull at my hair. I start crying miserably, and just collapse to the ground. My mother saw my reaction one night, and thought of taking me to a psychologist, or a mental institution. I'm afraid. What do I do in a situation like this. Should I see the psychologist?
TEEN LINE WROTE:
Hey! Thank you so much for opening up to TEEN LINE. It sounds like you are in a really stressful position right now, and I want to commend you on your self-awareness. It takes a lot of courage to reach out for help. It must be really difficult and discouraging to find yourself in a new school while all this turmoil is invading your home-life. It is extremely important that you are able to confide in somebody about all of the emotions you must be experiencing as a result of the issues you are facing. You mentioned that your parents are not always around but I would encourage you to speak to them, if you feel comfortable, about the way you are feeling so that they are aware that you are unhappy. If there is a school counselor or a trusted adult you would prefer to talk to, then I hope you open up to them, as being able to unload this stress may be a great opportunity for you to feel less distressed. Sometimes seeing a psychologist can also be extremely helpful so you can talk about how you are feeling. I really encourage you to call our hotline; we are open everyday 6-10pm PST and our number is 1(800)-852-8336 and you can live chat with us via our website during those hours as well.
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