:°°< why not? im not worth breathing

[hurting-one]

im a cutter and i just wanna DIE :< i cant fake it anymore, pretending things never happend, fakeing im happy. i was born in 1992 my mom is/was a slut,my dad was a rageing abusive drunk was hurted for years then when i was 13 moved to Vancouver BC to be adopted into the family im with now, but when i was 14 one of my new brothers started hurting me too, i wanted help but no one clued in, i couldnt tell or he'd beat me :°°< then when i was 16 i got pregnant he got mad and beated me to the point i lost the baby, then my mom started relizing something wasnt right with my washing that i wasnt bringing anything down then asked if someone was hurting me i started to cry and looked at evan and she got mad at me.. my family blamed me i was kicked out i live with my youth pastor from my church, but why keep liveing when NO ONE cares about u or loves u? there isnt. im struggleing i really wanna live but pain is litarly KILLING ME :°°< please help me please :°°°<

[Jc268]

One thing I love you already by how strong you are, it takes an emensely strong lady to go through what you have, and I shall say I'd love to help(:

I am very sorry about the child, it must have hurt dearly. Another thing, I say, though it may not seem like it yet, you are MOST DEFFINATELY worth breathing, every breath!
I know you are having some very negative experiences, but as a friend you could possibly try to vent all of those negative feelings out by possibly talking to somebody?
[the pastor, a friend, boyfriend] or find an outlet?
Such as music, tv, a sport you possibly enjoy?
I can say you've already mustered trying one; talking to somebody; Teen Line:D

But all in all I am very sorry for what has happened to you, and I do care. I promise, someday, somehow, it will get better. You just have to find the light at the end of the tunnel.
I'd love some feedback!:)
Josh

[hurting-one]

thank-you Josh, but i havent taken any steps, i am nothing who desurves to be killed, i want a friend/friends but look at me....whos going to wanna be friends with a slut? i try and i try but i'm dead inside so why keep trying? my dad and my brother where right, not talking is better than talking :°°<

[erika08]

Don't loose hope baby, you can change yourself, you can prove to them that your not a slut. You can make friends to other, maybe you can join to every group or organization. a good organization.

[hurting-one]

dont lose hope...sadly already lost it, life is ending soon i can feel it

[erika08]

no.. just think positive, don't be so negative. okay?