I'm sorry that you've been dealing with this addiction for so long, but I'm so glad that you have decided to make a change in your life. It's really courageous of you make such a huge change. It must have felt terrible to feel like you've hit rock bottom. I've found that some really helpful ways to cope with feeling like you want to use again is to just take a walk or get some fresh air. You can also try looking up NA meetings in your area if you need some extra support. Anyways, I really hope I help in some way, and please feel free to call teenline whenever you need someone to talk to.
a TEENLINE teen