when i was 6 my birth dad and uncle both started abuseing/rapeing me they where bipolar abusive pot smokeing agressive drunks, my mom was too busy being a drug/sex addicted street worker my horror went on till i was 12, then moved in with a foster family where within a year (i am 13 now) i was getting abused by one of my foster brothers which didnt end till last summer when i was 18 turning 19, i'm 19 now live in canada, and i find myself slowly becomeing my dad, drinking to hide the pain, getting upset due to drinking then drinking to hide my pain. i haven leted myself cry for 13 years cause it's not right to cry, it's weakness!! please help me i need help to stop numbing my past please please
I'm very sorry about your tragic past. However, it is important to remember that life does go on. Rather than being upset about your past, I suggest doing the things you've always wanted to do. Drinking only numbs the pain for a short a while. Ultimately it will hurt you permanently if you continue. I have been to a few AA meetings (alcoholics anonymous) they may be great help to you. http://www.aa.org/?Media=PlayFlash Here is a link to the alcoholics anonymous, you should find a meeting that will be held in your area. Again, i'm very sorry about your childhood.
hey Amanda, i dono about aa mettings i feel like i'm doing ok i'm fine its just the flash backs,nightmares and memories are messing me up, drinking is keeping me from going insane..amanda, my names amanda too.