I cant do this

[Say Anything]

I've gone from having depression I can deal with to depression were I feel the need to cut and cut. When I get start cutting I have very hard time stopping because I'm suicidal. I never thought I would lose control of my cutting and that I would get to the point of depression were it brings thoughts of suicide every day. I've tried talking to friends but they always find a way to make me feel worse. I've called suicide hot lines but there not enough. I cant talk to my parents but they would just deny my depression and call me over dramatic. I cant get help because my mom is at my school and I leave to far away to see a councilor. I found love and was happy for a little but that died... I really wanted to be with her too... She's my best friend and i loved her... When i was with her, it was the happiest I've been a while. I'm running out of options.

[lilballa32]

hey
im sorry you are feeling this way,
just hang in there!! there is always someone that cares, i care.
just think of all the people you will be hurtin if you end your life.
and your best friend, probably loves you and doesnt know how to react yet
good luck
pm me if needed

[jacques]

i am in the same boat you are in. i cant tell my parents bc they would say the same thing i have tried talking to my friends and they just pretened there isnt a problem. i cut also and there are just sometimes that i feel that i cant conrol it that it wouldnt be hard to move to my wrist. i was in love also with a beautiful women i was so happy but it died also. like they are do. i just wonted to let you know your not alone in your feelings. i have the same problem. if you wont to pm me i would appresate it.

[xmusic]

Wow. We have really similar stories. =/ Even though things suck right now, you have to know that you can't give up. The way you feel isn't your fault, and no matter how much you may feel like you deserve to feel this way, or that you're stuck, you can't give up. Depression is a treatable disease, and I totally get the problems with the parents. I suppose I'm a hypocrite in a way, because i haven't gotten help either, but if i can't help myself, i'd like to help other people at least. I know it's easier said than done, but you should try to explain to your parents somehow. if they don't understand at first, make them understand. if they really care about you, they'll want you to get help. nobody deserves to feel the way you do. feel free to pm me.

[TaintedBeauty]

i know the feeling ='(
i wish i could give you more advice on it but
i feel like in turning suicidal as well although i onli attempted it one time.
but this is what we are here for to help eachother out.

[cati_13]

hey i know how you feel! really.... im not one of those people that say "i know how you feel." when they dont! i am where you are and my life is failing for me! just know that your not alone in this! you have friends and family! altho i cant turn to my fam and idk if you can! but just know that you have friends out there!