When I am around a knife i imagine me cutting my neck but i dont. I try over and over again to stop and breath. That does not help!! It seems like i am caring everyones stress and no one cares about mine. How do I stop ? I want to relax with out having to deal with eveyone else pain and stress. It makes me said that i cant go a day without cring myself to sleep it hurts. Everyday can any one help me. I dont want to kill me self but i dont want to deal with everyone elses stress either. I cant run away. So I take it or just kill myself in side.