thing lately have gotten better,... i go threw fazes of being happy then really depressed.. i really will try tonight... i cutt really deep.. i sawed at it... plz god plz.... just let is be enough im beond num in the recent moments... theres blood.. is this enough? plz let it be... its not the pian im worried about its the fact everything i do is so much beond a f*** up move.. i thank everyone who has cared, tried helpping.. but time will heal your pain. it will eventually leave me in a memory to just be quickly forgoten.. i just really want the hurt to stop love only leaves scars.. relationships go to hell. i always mess them up. it my perfection at life. i do nothin close to as well as i do messing everything up.... i just wish ppl understud who i am how i lived and what i have do and had happen.. mabe then ppl would understand... iv tried exsplaining but it never is enough for them to truely know and take me seriously... oh well i hope its good bye... well really, i pray it is.