Your in the exact situation as me, no joke.i would tell my best friend stuff like "i wish it would all stop. Everyhing, life itself." she didnt get it. I OD'd a couple of months ago, and immideatly regretted it seconds after swallowing the pills. I was taken to a self injury rehab center. No phones,clocks, internet and no going outside... It sucked. I was only there for 3 days, and not a day goes by where i dont think about it. I felt dumb for trying to kill myself. There were teens there with way worse problems. Stuff that should be featured on the oprah show. Think about things before you commit. How many people you'll effect. That sticks with someone forever, the experience of loosing a friend. The place i went to really helped me think about things... Maybe thats all you need. Is some time to think. Bad things happen so better things can come, is my motto. (: haha. Cliche, i know. Message me if you ever need to talk. Hope this helped.