running out of time

[melll]

i want to die so bad. ive lost my only thing worth living for and i can't stop cutting myself. i havnt eaten in days. i just want to die and get it over with so bad. my parents think i'm insane. they want to put me in a mental institution. iv'e been meeting with a psychologist for a while now. it hasn't changed anything. almost every night now i hold a knife to my throat and think of how easy it would be to commit suicide and not have deal with this living hell anymore. every day is a struggle. i'm always made fun of in school for being "emo". my grades are dropping... i feel like a failure. there never seems to be a moment where i smile and mean it. depression has swallowed me whole. i can't sleep, but when i'm able i have extreme night terrors. please help me. please. before i give up and kill myself.

[chels05forhope]

dont give up!!!

stand tall!!! BE PROUD!!!!!! YUOU HAVE MADE IT THROUGH all that and yet you have the ability to fight through your emotions of depression.

life is wack yes, but life needs to be lived to keep on going..... know that this is only a bump maybe a road block but nothin you cant handle

to me yoru already have way through it i mean your parents know you got help now its your turn to make the next move

believe in yourself
this is a new time a new way a new light!!!! the old light bulb is about to go out and its time for you to throw that away and start a new bulb

you chance tto say I AM STRONG
I AM BRAVE
I HAVE WON MY FIGHT WITHIN
NOW IS MY CHANCE FOR LIFE
THE TIME TO LIVE
THE BUCKET OF TEARS IS ALMOST FULL FOR YOU TO WASH AWAY THE REGRET AND START NEW!!!!
PM ME OK I HOPE IM NOT TO LATE....