Help.!!!

[Please Help]

I dont want help but yet i seek it i wanna cry but yet i hold it in i wanna dier but yet im afraid to im just so puttt up with all this bullshit going on in my life i just wanna end all my problems..once and for all ... i know my family is going to miss me or aleast 2 or 3 because4 most of them dont but damn i feel trapped i dont know what to do i just gotta lett my self go ..... and stop holding my self up and a floor i can see no more.. on a life i dont want

[chels05forhope]

First off just breathe for a second get urself together just let everything flow out and if u need someone to talk to pm me