breaking point.

[soccarools]

i had such a bad day at school today. i honestly couldn't stop thinking about killing myself and slitting my wrists. the teacher kept asking me question and i couldn't pay attention. she kept saying "Isabelle...Isabelle.. heello? are you with us?" and everyone stared at me but i didn't notice because i was thinking about a razor running across my wrist, and then the room being covered in blood. i didn't even realize she was calling on me. then in 4th block, i had LOYO and i couldn't take it anymore. i started shaking and i didn't know what to do. i panicked so bad and i took a pencil sharpener out of my bag and literally tried tearing it apart with my fingernails. and when i couldn't get the razor out of it, i started crying. it took me like an hour, but i finally asked if i could have a pass to guidance. i went to guidance, but i had no clue what to say.. so i basically just sat there. i sent her an email though, and i'm going back to see her tomorrow morning because she told me to, but i just don't know what to say to her. i don't know how to put my feelings into words anymore. these are my feelings: http://fake-smiles-and-hidden-tears.tumblr.com ... how am i supposed to explain all that to her?! i don't know what to tell her. i'm scared. what if i do commit suicide..?

[tuckerdain13]

You need to be honest with her. Believe it or not, she can help you alot. One of my closest friends was threatening suicide. He told me to go to school that day and tell everybody goodbye for him because he couldnt do it himself and that he wouldnt be there. I told my closest teacher (shes like a second mom to me) and she told me to go to the counselor. She took me, the good friend, and two other friends that were involved and sat us all down and talked to us about it. She actually understood and helped. She was sympathetic and did everything to help with this situation.

Suicide is a very important matter. Think of all the people you would be affecting aside from yourself. Please don't do anything to jeopardize your life. i promise you things will get better. Talk to your counselor. Tell her everything and she will help you.

Well, im here for you. Sometimes you just need someone to talk to(: