When does it all end?

[tentenpiemaster]

I see it everywhere. Suicide is a perminate solution to a temp problem. When is the problem solved? When is temp over? I've been dealing for almost 6 long, long years staying alive, staying around. Its not getting better. I'm not getting happy. i dont care anymore. My boyfriend is all that keeps me in this world... but i dont think love is enough anymore. Please... just tell me it gets better. When will it get better...

[ana-mia]

I can't tell you when it will get better, I am in the same boat and the pain is unbearable right? It just doesn't seem worth it anymore not with all the pain. I don't know if this will help you, but it helps me. My mom died when I was 15 and I just concentrate on how horrible that made me feel, about how lost and confused I was. Then I remember that I have a close bond with someone (my twin sis) and it's harder to go through with it. To think that with one decision I can cause my sister to feel the kind of pain I have been feeling for the past 5 years. Think about that with your boyfriend. It might not get better soon, but eventually it will. Believe me I get it, I have been planning my suicide for who knows how long and this time I am serious, but I am still hanging on for that very reason. I can't stand the fact that I would be responsible for that kind of pain in someone's life.

[Lillian]

No one knows when their trip downhill is done.

But you are obviouly strong since you're alive now. You can manage longer. Until it ends - because it will eventually.