I honestly feel your pain I'm in the same boat... I've been cutting since I was 14 years old, I'm 2 months shy of 20. I'm strongly considering going into a rehab place, it may be tomorrow or the next day but my strength is seriously telling me to do it because I don't want to be riddled with scars all my life....I don't want to deal with the pain and the anxiety of no one knowing then thinking no one cares when if people knew they did. See where I'm getting at? Make me a promise, I myself may no be able to reply because I'm going to most likely check into a place sometime this week, (I'm so socially awkward I can barely talk to my own family so trust me.) you try to do the same....Your family WILL NOT hate you, they will comfort you, my family knew of my problem when I was young, I was in a Child Out Patient program it helped...For a few months,...Then I was released and it past....Trust me...Please for me, a person who knows what it's like get the help now...Because you end up not knowing what to do because you didn't tell anyone and you only told yourself because you thought no one would care or listen when they would.
Is this what happens to us? A life of conflict with no time for for friends, so that when it's done, only our enemies leave roses?