I know exactly how you feel, and have gone through the same things. And sometimes it returns.
It really helped me to tell my friends. It was sooooo hard to do, because i thought no one would understand me and think i was making it up for attention. Or that they wouldnt beleive me becuase im not really skinny. But it wasnt like that at all.
They told me they loved me and supported me. I do admit, that it was really tough. I heard a lot of "its unhealthy, you have to eat!!!! eat or im gonna be mad." and that did not help. I'm assuming you already know the negetive impacts of anorexia and bulemia. But when you're going through it all you can think of is getting skinnier, being that "perfect" girl.
I still have struggles, and stop eating sometimes. I dont know the magic answer to getting better, and personally I dont think I will ever get over it completely. But I do know what helps me and I hope it helps you.
Do things that make you truly happy. Exersice, hang out with friends, persue a goal yo have always wanted.
I found out a lot about myself, when I started questioning my eating disorder. I found out I wasnt as happy as I htought I was, and started dong things that would define me and make ME happy.
I cut my hair, got clothes I liked. Not stuff other people would like. I joined school organizations. I even signed up for a volunteer trip to africa. And spent hours and days fundraising.
I am leaving for my trip tommorow, and have never been happier and more comfortable with myself in my whole life.
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I hope i helped....