I know whats wrong...i need help

[Soccerkid]

[color=cyan]So I have never felt good about myself, you know when I look in the mirror. I have made myself throw up a few times but I have not done that in a while, and I never told anyone. But about a week ago, I started eating less and less, and now I basicaly eat no breakfast, no lunch, and as little dinner as possible without my parents thinking twice of it. Every once in a while I will have a cookie or something just so my friends dont think anything is up. If I start to feel hungry I force myself not to eat, it feels good. If I get really bad I drink some gatorade and thats it. Last night at practice I almost passed out. I think somethings wrong. What do I do?[/color] [size=18][/size]

[paintballove]

Hello Soccerkid.


It's important to know why you don't feel about yourself the way you should. God created you the way you are. Crash dieting is never a good option to go to.

If you are seeking a diet to cut off weight, remember that it will take time, excercise, and reduced diet - but not to an extreme.

If you would like to talk more, AIM me or post another reply.

Stay strong, and remember that to lose weight, you need to eat a healthy, balanced diet.

[kay.r]

Soccorkid,

I no how it is because i hav the same problem. I found out once u start not eating it gets addictive. You need help and what i do is think to myself "if i get help i wont hav to go throught this". It does kinda work. If you need someone to talk to im here.

[Chronic Edge]

I'm the exact opposite of what you are. I'm a mentally and emotionally f*** person, and that is not helped by the amount of stress I am under every day. When I feel bad, I feel angry. I want to break things. I want rip the wallpaper off my walls, I want to shatter the tv, I want to throw my dresser through the window. So the anger festers, and turns to depression. It consumes me, and makes me want to consume in turn. So I eat. I eat constantly. Whatever I can. It feels good, while I'm gorging myself. Then, when it's over, I just want to cry, and shoot myself in the brain. Occasionally I can replace the food with other things. If I can get caught up in a book, it may help. If the person I love is beside me, I'm fine. It's a horrible beast, and it's hard as f*** to conquer. The best thing you can usually do is distract it. What I do is think about what's causing all this shit, usually my parents or the problems of someone else that I care about. Then, instead of letting everything build up again, I try to change it. Use it to my advantage. I use the mistakes of my parents as motivation to be better than them, the perfect example of what I never want to be. Maybe you should try the same thing. Think about what makes you want to do this, and try to change it. Perhaps more importantly, talk to someone. If you like your parents, talk to them. If you have any friends you actually care about, they'll help you. I really can't tell you anything that anyone else can't. The answers are all the same, and I know they sound like bullshit. The cold hard truth is that there are no easy answers. To anything. The only reason I'm moderately okay is because of my girlfriend, and as much as I love her, I still haven't completely gotten over my shit. The only other thing I can say is to find something you care about. Someone you care about, enough to make yourself eat. It's hard to. But it's all that most of us can do. We must find the answers to our own problems. And if yours is better than mine, let me know.

[kay.r]

thanx... hey email me

[desire]

Heyo

The biggest situation here are that our mental strength ain't so strong. We need to build up that strength. If you want to eat, find out what makes you happy, and do what makes u happy instead of eating all the time. If you're not eating, first things first. Why aren't you eating? You need to eat, but for your situation, you need to feel good about yourself. Try making a list of all the positive things you have done. Don't be so hard on yourself, and try to think of all the great things that you have done, or have been done to you. See how you feel, then try eating something. Kind of like a treat for acomplishing something. But don't think that eating your meals is a kind of treat. Just think positive, then eat something. Try that again but next time eat a little more. what I'm trying to get at is, instead of eating 3 meals per day, eat a little bit at a time but more than 3 times a day. Also add in the positive part.

[Soccerkid]

Thanks for the help guys. I have been eating more lately, but slowly but surely I can feel myself not wanting to eat again. I just got cut from my soccer team, am worried I might have broken my wrist, and I was just diagnosed with Lymes disease. I still look in the mirror and am not happy, and with so much going on, it seems like my weight is the one thing I can control. Everything else just seems out of my hands. I want to tell my friend cuz she has been there for me through everything, but I dont want to push her away by telling her. I am so scared. I don't want to lose everything. But the control, the knowing that something is completely at my hands, it keeps me sane in a way, you know?

[nicker_d00dle_x0]

Thanks for the help guys. I have been eating more lately, but slowly but surely I can feel myself not wanting to eat again. I just got cut from my soccer team, am worried I might have broken my wrist, and I was just diagnosed with Lymes disease. I still look in the mirror and am not happy, and with so much going on, it seems like my weight is the one thing I can control. Everything else just seems out of my hands. I want to tell my friend cuz she has been there for me through everything, but I dont want to push her away by telling her. I am so scared. I don't want to lose everything. But the control, the knowing that something is completely at my hands, it keeps me sane in a way, you know?

i know EXACTLY how you feel about the control thing...but just recently, i discovered that its not worth it at all. and im trying very hard to recover, not just for me but for someone i love more than anything as well. try controlling other aspects of your life, little things. It'll definitely help

[desire]

By the way, do not tell your friend. . . . yet. But really it's up to you. I've had experience where I told my friend something, next thing you know they kind of like looked me down. . . well one of them did, one of my other friends just started spasming at me because she thought that I had cut my wrist(s). So really it's up to you, but you might want to consider not telling your friend. Just to be on the safe side, you never know what his/her reaction or thought could be. If it goes wrong, then you'll have another thing to add onto your daily life, and it won't be one of those happy things that happen to you.

[desire]

By the way, congratulations on continuing to eat. Even though you may feel like you don't want to eat, you have to think positive, and eat.

Like you said, your weight is something you can control, so control it the positive way, meaning to eat healthy and those other stuff.